Wednesday, August 24, 2016

About Love.

Love, love, love.
Milosc, milosc, milosc.
Amor, amor, amor.

Love in my three languages. Someone smart once said that all humans suffer constantly, the reason is either war or love.

Why? Why cannot we love, selflessly, without conditions, past experiences, freely, without fearing what will be, what will happen, will you be, will you stay forever? Will you hurt me like I was hurt before?

Why is it something we all desire most but only few of us are lucky to experience. The real love. The kind of love that does not need holding on to. The love that accepts with patience who you are. The love that does not ask questions and transcends limitations of borders and bodies. The kind of love that communicates without speaking. Transcends emotionally through our blood and skin and touches without touch.

Why is it so difficult to find and keep. Because believe me it exists.

Quédate un poquito mas                                                          Stay with me for a little while
Todavía no es hora de abordar                                                It is not time to leave yet
Escucha estas palabras como despedida                               Hear those words as my good-bye
Por que no puedes explicarme                                                 Can you please explain to me
Por que dejaste de amarme                                                      Why you stopped loving me
O acaso todo siempre fue una mentira                                   Perhaps it was always a lie
Por que yo, si bien me he equivocado                                     Because I must have been wrong
Tenia la certeza que mi sitio era a tu lado                I was sure that I my place was by your side
Y hasta hoy así cumplí                                                    ...........until today
 Pero a ti se te olvido que prometiste                                    Did you forget that you promised
Que nunca me dejarías                                                         That you would never leave me
Que sin mi no había razón para seguir viviendo no That without me there is no reason to live
Se te olvido que prometiste                                                  You forgot that you promised
Amarme hasta el final del tiempo                         That you would love me until the end of times
En las buenas y en las malas                                             good and in bad moments
Me darías tu calor                                                                You promised to keep me warm
Se te olvido que me robaste el corazón                               You forgot that you stole my heart
Me dices que no hay marcha atrás         You are telling me that you will not change your mind
Incompatible a mi seras                                                      That you are not compatible with me
Y que no tenemos en común ninguna meta    And that we do not have any goals in common
Si es así que quede claro                                                       ...............if all this is true
Que todo esto se habría evitado                                          We could have avoided this heartache
Si tu me hubieras siempre hablado con la neta                     if you had told me the truth before.....
Por que yo, si bien me he equivocado                                   Because I must have been wrong....
Tenia la certeza que mi sitio era a tu lado                              (repeating the chorus)
Ya lo ves que si cumplí
Pero a ti se te olvido que prometiste
Que nunca me dejarías
Que sin mi no había razón para seguir viviendo no
Se te olvido que prometiste
Amarme hasta el final del tiempo
En las buenas y en las malas
Me darías tu calor
Se te olvido que me robaste el corazón
Que prometiste

Sunday, June 14, 2015

Starsailor and Pavlova

"Get yourself out of town. There is no point hanging round. There is a passion inside since you've had since your youth..well, you write and you write and you work 9 to 5."
Starsailor "Neon Sky"

Last Thursday I had a date night with my husband which included a delicious dinner at La Palette, which must be the only restaurant in Toronto where you can eat French food, drink Polish vodka and hear music that radio does not play ;) We also went to see a concert, which was one of the best concerts ever.

Starsailor. Where do I even start. My favourite band in the whole world. It actually makes me happy they are not Coldplay kind of famous, because I feel as if I had a little more right to call them my band. It was my band, my find, my secret. I have not heard them on the radio. I have not found them by looking through my brother's CD collection. I have not seen their video on MTV first. Do you remember MTV and the fact that they actually used to play music videos?

I found them exactly when I needed them. It was some 14 years ago. I was in my second year of university and I decided to move out of the dorm and live on my own. I wanted to be alone to grow up, to feel independent, to face my demons, to discover who I really was and what I wanted. And of course I was hoping for love, salvation, someone who will make my life better and make all my problems go away. I started writing so much that it was almost scary. As soon as I was alone with thoughts and a pen and piece of paper, all these words started to come out, as if someone else was dictating them and it was not even a difficult process- they just appeared. They were touching the most difficult and vulnerable parts of my soul. They were taking me to scary places. Unfortunately I threw out most of them. Some of the poems were even predictions of what was to come and that scared me. The fact that I unleashed all the emotions and I was able to tell the future in some weird unexplained ways. I put it aside, I threw it out, these words were my demons I needed to lock up. And that is when I found Starsailor, whose words and music were the salvation I was looking for.

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Blueberry Scone Perfection

"Problems that we face, soon will be replaced..."

It has been a long time since writing anything here, and I know I should not have any excuses, but I have been very busy with first of all going back to work from maternity leave and then going through an interview process and finally starting a new job. No, nothing to do with food. It definitely shook up my routine and I am not quite back to it yet. It has been my first few weeks at work, which can be overwhelming and it takes most of my focus, attention and preoccupies my thoughts.

Last Friday, however, I felt the much needed inspiration in the food world. First of all one of my recipies got some focus and thank you notes and secondly I went out to celebrate a friend's birthday in a new Spanish restaurant called Patria. 

We started with a beautiful bottle of Tempranillo, a light, fresh, slightly fruity red wine, which reminded me of a Merlow and that was exactly what we wanted. Then our order of tapas followed, which was not only eye catching but delicious. We ordered some squid with potatoes and smoked paprika infused oil, croquettes with Manchego cheese, crusty bread with garlic, tomatoes and anchovies, dates wrapped in bacon and a dish that impressed me the most- ramps with romesco sauce. 

I always hear about ramps this time of the year, but I have never tried them before. These were similar to baby green onions, grilled beautifully and resting on a bed of a red pepper sauce with almonds and mini croutons. They were decorated with mini chive flowers. How gorgeous and how delicious! All the flavours and textures were blending into a perfect mouthful. We were also eyeing a paella someone ordered but it called for at least 4 people with one or two appetizer before that.

We finished the meal off with a flaky pastry topped with turron ice cream and sprinkled with pieces of turron. A reallly great evening with inspiring food.

After stocking up my fridge last Saturday, I woke up with a need to cook something delicious. As it is time to eat anything asparagus I decided to grill some asparagus and make some Hollandaise sauce for eggs Benedict. I served it with some thick bacon and a baby kale salad.

And to top it off with something sweet I decided to make scones. I have made scones before and they were good. But this was the first time they were perfect and the way scones should be - fluffy, soft, buttery. A recipe of perfection. 

Thursday, February 26, 2015

Detox Soup And Healthy Banana Bread

After a weekend of indulgence and a few days of eating leftovers, it is time to take care of our bodies. Last weekend we celebrated the 4th birthday of our daughter Teresa and we made lots, lots and lots of food. Probably too much. We made Mexican chicken tinga with chorizo, served on tostadas with sour cream, guacamole, refried beans, salsa and lettuce. We snacked on pico de gallo, onion dip, hummus with veggies and all sorts of chips, as well as a Russian salad. There was also tres leches cake and Magnolia bakery vanilla cupcakes with cream cheese strawberry frosting. OH, yes, did I mention chocolate banana bread with Kahlua?

I have been having eggs for breakfast almost every single day this week, topping it with the gorgeous leftover smoky salsa. Followed by some toast, buttered of course, and more toast with jam. Time to get back on track with oatmeal and fruit, so today I had a grapefruit, with my coconut granola, natural yogurt and pomegranate.

Finally the leftovers are gone and I was craving something clean, fresh and low in calories. I decided to make a veggie soup, from the Oh She Glows cookbook, with cumin, ginger and a hint of cinnamon- healthy, cleansing and energizing. I was out of kale but I had cabbage, and I used that instead. I would recommend using one or the other, but not the two of them at the same time. Might be too much.

Eat Your Greens Detox Soup
Oh She Glows

1 tablespoon olive oil
1 onion, chopped
3 cloves of garlic, chopped
2 large carrots, chopped
2 cups shredded cabbage
2 cups sliced mushrooms, portobella or cremini
2 cups broccoli florets
salt and pepper to taste
1 1/2 teaspoons grated ginger
1/2 teaspoon turmeric
2 teaspoons cumin
1/8 teaspoons cinnamon
6 cups vegetable broth
2 cups torn kale leaves, optional
fresh lemon juice, for serving

Start with 1 onion, which you fry in a little bit of olive oil. Add three cloves of garlic, chopped. Add about two large carrots, peeled and chopped as well and about two cups of shredded cabbage. Next, add two cups of chopped mushrooms, 2 cups of broccoli florets, salt and pepper to taste. Stir in the ginger, turmenic, cumin, and cinnamon and saute for 1-2 minutes until fragrant. Add the broth and stir to combine. Bring to boil and reduce the heat to medium and simmer for about 15-20 minutes. You can stir in kale and a squeeze of lemon juice just before serving.

I served the soup with flour tortillas with avocado, roasted sweet potatoes, shredded lettuce, salsa and some yogurt on the side. You can also use coleslaw and regular or refried beans.

Monday, February 16, 2015

Czesia's Donuts

I cannot believe how fast this year has gone by. Only recently I have been preparing for the arrival of my daughter, sketching plans for the year off and all the possibilities and all the travel I was going to do. It went by so fast because I was at home not only with my newborn, but my three year old as well. She is about to turn four and start Kindergarten this September. How crazy is that? From the care-free 20 year old something, who thought the world was her oyster, suddenly I am a responsible mother of two, with a mortgage and bills to pay, too much post pregnancy weight and very little time to myself. Even at nights my little one still wakes up, so I am lucky to watch a 40 minute TV show without being interrupted.

However, no matter how crazy and busy my schedule is or will be, I will always find time to cook fresh and delicious meals for my family. At the dinner table is where we bond, we set rules for table appropriate manners and at the moment, we are doing more of nagging and putting fires off than relaxing. As crazy as it seems, the meal finds its way to the table, somehow. In the midst of one million questions from my 4 year old, which mostly are- "Can I have...?", every two minutes, and my little one crawling around, grabbing my legs because she wants to be with mommy, somehow I cook those meals most days. Some days it is just creative leftovers which we we eat straight out of containers. Once in a while we buy take-out ramen or schwarma. And then there are days of pure bliss, of meals cooked from scratch such as Mexican salsa, guacamole, chicken tinga or carnitas, shepherd's pie or beef stews. Days of coffee cake and muffins, waffles, pancakes. I hope one day we will sit with my girls at the same dinner table and we will be able to hold a conversation about everything and nothing, and remember the craziness of messy floor, spilled drinks, food on the floor, dancing in the kitchen, the laughter and the popcorn we eat late at night when some of us do not want to sleep, and that would not be the adults around here.

Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Perfect Lemon Pound Cake

Perfect Coffee Cake? Move over and make some space for this wonderful pound cake. I am very happy about it as I tried making pound cake numerous times, but it never tasted as good as I wanted it to taste. It was either too sweet, too lemony or too fluffy. This was has the perfect texture and taste and I can say I found a perfect recipe.

It took me a while to write this post, as we were away in Mexico and as soon as we came back I could not get back on track to writing. Being busy getting back into my routines after vacationing. I know some of you will be very happy with this recipe.